I have been asked multiple times over the last 5 or 6 months about my feelings toward impending parenthood. "Are you excited?" "What are you feeling?" "Does it seem real?" With this being our first child I am entering a new stage in my life. It actually isn't a stage at all because this is now going to be my life. For the last 8 months life has gone on as normal, albeit a few changes. Claire needs a hand now to get off the couch. She leaves the bed a lot more during the night and odor has become a four letter word with Claire. But something happened to me this Wednesday. Parenthood began. I realized this week what I am to do as a father. For those that are unware, Claire had a doctors appointment and a red flag appeared. A second ultrasound was needed and a meeting with a genetic counsellor. It was concluded that the flag was due to a technical error and all should be fine.
But in those long 48 hours I realized my duties. First and foremost is to love this child unconditionally. I have never seen, touched, held, hugged, or kissed this baby, but I have never loved something more. I realized this week what family means. Claire and I are fortunate to have the support of so many people who are a phone call away. I realized what worrying over your child means. The thought of your child being unhealthy or hurt is the worst feeling in the world. *Sorry mom and dad for that time I went for a morning run.
All in all, the rest of my life as a father started on Wednesday at 4:30 with a simple phone call. With the help of family and friends and the support of a strong, loving wife, I can do this.